Dear Journal,
Today, while I was eating lunch at Dad's office, I had a really cool experience. I was really stressed. I was super tired. And I had so much to do. And the next two days don't offer much of a break at all. But suddenly I had a very clear perspective. I realized that I don't even have to do any of these things if I don't want to. I realized that it was okay if I didn't get perfect grades. And it was okay if I wasn't even close to top of my class. Or if I felt behind because I havent done nursing things for 2 years because of my mission. And actually, it would be perfectly okay if I didn't take the NCLEX right when I graduated if I didn't feel ready.
Obviously I want to do all of these things. I want to be prepared and confident in school, I want to be ready for a job when I graduate. But today Heavenly Father reminded me that I don't even have to complete everything in a certain time frame.
It was such a beautiful reminder that this life is about my journey. MINE. Not the other 63 nursing students. Not the rest of the sisters from my mission, not my cousins or friends. For me this life is about my journey. And it's about my becoming. And God knows the best way and the best timing for me to become. So if my life doesn't go the way I tried to plan it, that's okay. Because as long as I'm becoming better and making progress on this journey it doesn't really matter how long it takes me or what happens along the way. I'm so grateful for that :)
I also need to write about my conversation with Tiffany about confidence and eggs :)
But now I need to go to bed. I have clinicals in 7 hours...
Goodnight!
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