Truth

It's been a while. But I'm bored at work with no patient so I decided to write an email to myself that I can eventually post on my blog.

Today I discovered something that I haven't for a long while. I discovered a blog that I'm absolutely obsessed with. It's called A Blog About Love (www.ablogaboutlove.com). And it's incredible.

I feel like I've learned a million things since I've been home from my mission-I've changed and grown and become better and more confident in so many ways-and I found a writer who is articulating and expanding upon the things that I've done. And it's made me so excited. 

Essentially the truth behind all these new ideas and principles and life style changes is this:

Because of God and truth that exists in the universe, we can CHOOSE to create our own reality.

And no, it's not fake. And no, it isn't ignoring reality. I used to think that, I thought that genuineness and being real meant accepting everything at face value. Until I realized that for us humans that is literally impossible.

I went to a meeting for work once (which I believe was fully meant for me as it was the weirdest random something like that had never happened and never happened again experience) where the woman presenting talked about this idea. And this is what made me believe it. Have you ever started dating someone and suddenly everywhere you go you notice his exact car? No, people didn't all the sudden go out and buy that car when you started dating. Instead, your senses were keyed into that input and so you noticed it all the time. We are not mentally capable of processing every bit of input we see or hear. And so our brains process that which we are tuned in to. So when I'm tuned into the car that my boyfriend drives, I suddenly notice that car everywhere. Now lets expand that to a broader principle. It is impossible for me to process every negative and positive reaction and emotion that mosys across my receptors. So whatever my receptors are tuned into that's what my brain will process. So essentially, if I choose to be tuned into positive, hopeful, grateful things, those are the things that my brain will notice. And suddenly I will see those emotions and reactions everywhere. (Not because suddenly everyone has become more grateful and kind and positive.) And thus, that becomes my reality. 

Isn't that incredible? As I have come to realize that my life has changed. I used to think I had to let myself feel everything. Let all my emotions be raw and real. And I still think there is a place for that. But I also believe that genuineness in emotions can come more in choosing rather than just the feeling of them.

Okedoke. I think that's all I want to write about now. I'm just really grateful I stumbled across this blog to remind me of the truths God has been teaching me this past year (well, my whole life). I'm excited to put them more into practice.

Ttfn. 

Beks